Saturday, April 28, 2007

The past 24 hours have been real good to me. Hell, this whole week has pretty much been good to me. It's about time, right?

Friday night my manager let me get off work a bit early, so I left about half an hour earlier than usual and called Nicole up to let her know I was out and any time she was ready to go, so was I. I ended up heading to her place around 7PM, and then we went down to the Spectrum to eat at Johnny Rocket's....since i'm such a picky eater (and no Ben, I don't just eat fucking hot dogs. :p ). Nicole seemed okay with it, she went a bit naughty on her diet and had a burger, which I thought was kinda funny, mainly because a burger is an every day occurrence to me. Anyway, we had our dinner, and while we were eating, one of the kids eating with his family inside was climbing up on the counter near the window, and it was kinda cute to watch because I saw Nicole slip into mommy mode for a bit. She was making faces at the little guy, and he seemed to enjoy it. I jokingly mouthed the words "Back off, she's mine" to the kid, which he just smiled at me. I thought it was pretty funny, and I think I remember hearing her laugh too.

Anyway, we finished our dinner and made our way over to the theater to see Grindhouse. We got in to the 10:10PM showing, and sat down in what looked to be a love seat done movie theater style, which was nice. I had my arm around her most of the time, until it got tired (which, in a three hour movie, happened A LOT), but I didn't mind. We just sorta cuddled throughout the whole movie, and it was really nice. What made it really great was, the first movie was pretty disgusting at times, and when it got that way, she'd hide her face against my chest. Cute!

The movie let out around 1:30AM, and we didn't get back to her place until about 2. We stayed up and talked for a bit, and she offered to let me stay the night, which I happily accepted. We spent the night in bed together (nothing happened, sorry :P ), and woke up around 9AM, and ended up just lying in bed for the next four hours, talking. I had to tear myself away, because she had to get out to her friend's place to hang out. Her friend's been going through a rough time, and Nicole's helped her enjoy the last few weekends.

I stopped by the mall on the way home to pick up a few comics before pretty much calling it a day. I've been sitting (for the most part) in my computer chair since then, bored out of my fucking mind and missing Nicole a shit ton. I know i've gushed about her a lot in the past few days, but her and I have really hit it off very well. It's really nice to find someone like her, who shares a lot of common interests and is someone I can really relate to. I feel like I can be real honest with her about everything, except for the few details i'm too shy to get into. I'm sure that'll fade a little and i'll open up more as time goes on. Anyway, long story short, i'm falling head over heels for her, it's been a great couple of days, and will hopefully continue to be that way for a long time.

Currently listening to: Sublime - We're Only Gonna Die For Our Arrogance

Thursday, April 26, 2007

So yesterday I had, what is quite possibly, the best day of my life. Nicole came over relatively early in the morning, and we hung out until I had to go to work. She even skipped class so she could enjoy the day more, which was nice. Oh, and before I go on, I should talk about Tuesday night. She called sometime at night (I forget exactly when) and invited me over to her place, so I went out there, and we talked for a while before we ended up making out, and I was enjoying the hell out of it, naturally. It was getting pretty late though, so I went home, and we agreed to get together on Wednesday, which we did.

So, back to yesterday. She came over, I showed her my room, we sat and talked for a little while, played a little Guitar Hero, and pretty much just made out the rest of the time she was there. A bit more happened, but out of respect for her wishes i'm not going to go into all the details, but we had a good time (no, we did not have sex, i'll just say that). But anyway, I was extremely happy the rest of the day, even things that would've normally brought me down at work didn't even scratch the surface. I had a huge grin on my face all day, and am quite possibly the happiest i've been in a long ass time. Her and I get along really well, and we seem to have a ton in common, which is incredibly great. Plus we both want each other, so we've got that going for us too. ;)

Didn't hear from her after she left, but she called me this morning (which I missed, sadly), and called me again after work, and we talked about getting together tomorrow night to see a movie. I also brought up the fact that, even though I had a totally wonderful time Wednesday, that we went a bit fast and that I wanted to slow things down a little. I think Nicole's really awesome, and even though the sexual tension is there, i'd much rather just get to know her better before anything of that nature goes on. So yeah, that's what's been going on between her and I recently. I'm really digging her, and we get along great. :D

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

I really need to stop getting my hopes up so high so quickly, 90% of the time it just leads to me being depressed when things don't work out. I've been trying to get to see Nicole again for a little while now, and it seems like things just aren't working out. Not that it's her fault or my fault or anything, it just seems like everything else is to blame. I called her on Sunday night to see if she wanted to do anything yesterday, but I got her machine, and it turns out she was busy with homework, so that's cool. Her and I talked last night and she brought up the idea of coming over after she got out of class to just hang out for a while. Before she signed off, she was taking her daughter to the hospital, she had something caught in her ear and was crying, so she went and got that taken care of, and we didn't rally make any concrete plans for today but again I got my hopes up since she brought it up. Before she left, I asked her to call me when she got out of class today so we could work something out, so today I woke up, got the room slightly more clean than it usually is, took care of a few personal things, and went about my normal day, waiting for her to call, when she never did. I'm willing to give her the benefit of the doubt, considering she took her daughter to the hospital, so I called her today and left a message. I can understand if what happened last night was more serious and she had to stick around or whatever, but I was at least hoping for a call letting me know she couldn't make it for whatever reason.

So yeah...things haven't worked out the way I want to...and i'm slightly miffed that she didn't call, but it's no big whoop. We're not seriously dating or anything, so I can't get too upset, right? :P

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Damn it, damn it, son of a bitch. Damn it, damn it, son of a bitch.

That about sums up the ending to my day. I was having a pretty good day to begin with, meeting Nicole and all, and then the drama returns in my life. More pointless bullshit that I would rather not deal with, but can't help but be caught in the middle. For those that aren't in the loop, let me summarize.

I'm an admin on a message board/website, along with my friend from AZ. I've been an admin at the board for a long time now, and the main admin (from last year) got himself arrested and thrown in jail for I don't know how long, which left us all in a bad way. He had all the information regarding the site, and there was no way to contact him, so my friend from AZ, and another friend decided to do whatever we could to get the place up and running again, which we did. We've had it up for a while, and things have been really great, everyone's friendly, the atmosphere around the board has been great, and for the most part everyone seems happy. ..which wasn't the case when the old admin was around. Basically, no one wants him back until he can prove to us that he deserves it back, but he's making a big stink about it. He's popped up a few times here and there in the past month or so, and every time he has, its been a time in my life when i've been in a really good mood (this afternoon for example), and all it does is just bring me down off of that great feeling, and i'm fucking sick of it.

I don't want him to come back, I don't want him getting his old admin spot back without earning it first, but I know the guy...and I know he's not going to take that lying down. He's going to become the biggest pain in the ass, and all its going to do is just bug everyone more.
I just got back from meeting Nicole for the first time and enjoyed myself. We just walked around South Coast Plaza and talked for about half an hour, which wasn't my original plan, but I had fun just the same. I was going to treat her to lunch, but she forgot she had class at a certain time, so my plan had to change. It's all good though, I still enjoyed myself. Her and I talked on the phone last night for two hours and there was rarely a break in the conversation, which is rare for me. We seem to get along pretty damn well, and it seems like we have a lot of things in common, which is cool. She's cute too, which doesn't hurt things at all...not to sound shallow or anything, mind you. :p

Anyway, she's very easy to talk to, which is a great plus for me because I usually don't have a lot to say. I try, but I usually just fail. It's who I am, damn it! She wants to try and get together again as well, so right now i'm a pretty happy guy. We didn't work out any concrete details, but she knows how to get in touch with me, and i'm sure we'll figure it out.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

I’ve been talking to this girl I met on for about two weeks now, and so far it’s been going really well. We seem to get along pretty well, and so far we haven’t run out of things to talk about. We haven’t done a WHOLE lot of chatting, but I do enjoy talking with her. Her name’s Nicole, and she lives in Costa Mesa I believe. We talked a little earlier, but she had to go to class so it didn’t last too long, but every time that we’ve talked so far, there really hasn’t been a long pause or lull in the chat. It’s been nice. I was hoping to get to talk to her before going to bed, but she must’ve gotten too tired.

The only real “problem” about her, which really isn’t a problem, just something extra to think about, is that she’s got a two year old daughter. I know its way too soon to be worrying about that, but it is something that needs to be considered. I don’t know exactly what all the rules are about dating a single mother, about how long until a guy becomes financially responsible (or at least more so). I don’t know…I remember hearing something about it on the radio a while back, I could be way off…meh. Anyway, we haven’t met in real life yet, but I’m considering seeing if I can’t work something out in the next few weeks. With her raising her daughter and going to school as well, I don’t know when she’ll find time, but I’m sure we’ll work something out.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Even though its been awhile, this isn't going to be a huge update, so I apologize for that. :p When I opened this page, I had a better idea about what I was going to write, but TV distracted me, and I forgot.

I was up late last night, like I have been for the past week, and I was just looking around a few MySpace pages of friends of mine and whatnot when I came across Johnna's. Turns out she got married already (I thought it was later this month, but I guess not), and I glanced at a few of the pictures she had put up. I saw a picture of her mom, and I remember her telling me that she looked like her, but I didn't realize how much. I was surprised, it was like looking at her twin.

Damn it, I had more...I know I did, but now i'm just drawing blanks. :/