Well, its not looking as if Jen and I are gonna be doing anything together this weekend, sadly. I gotta say i'm anxious to go out with her, just to see how well we get along outside of work, and maybe to ease my "fears" so to speak. There's still a chance, but i'm not betting on it (going out this weekend I mean). I'm thinking of just going along with her off the clock on the late shuttle one night, just so we can talk a little. Haven't done a whole lot of that the past week, its been too busy.

Wednesday and Thursday night both, Quiksilver decided to fuck me over with around 30 boxes for my shuttle, each one weighing about 35 lbs. Now, one or two boxes isn't so bad, but after handing 30 of them three times (once to put in them in my truck, once to put them in my shuttle truck, and once to take them out of my shuttle truck) I was just sore as all hell. Its been oddly busy this week, I guess last week was just a fluke. Last week my route was pretty light, but this week its been slightly heavy. Not too bad mind you, but worse than the week previous. Ah well, at least the pay is good, right? Speaking of pay, I made almost $400 last week, which is about $100 more than usual, so last week's pain in the ass wasn't too horrible after all. I've got a little more spending money this week....and once again i'm thinking of getting a tattoo. I still have no idea what or where, but the thought is still in my mind.

Last night I got uberpissed at one of my boardmates, and their significant other. She just hit a nerve, I guess. Normally I can take a joke pretty well, but this one just wouldn't go away. I went to bed angry, and laid there for about half an hour, trying to sleep. I almost felt like making an angry post to get it off of my mind, but decided against it. I think its for the better that I did.

So, it turns out the woman at the ramp in Long Beach wasn't just joking around after all. Jen actually came up to me while we were at the ramp, and she handed me a piece of paper with her cell phone number and her e-mail address. I e-mailed her tonight, but wasn't really sure what to say, so I kinda rambled, probably coming off like an idiot, but oh well.

While I was in my truck scanning the freight for later on, Jen arrived and started to offload her stuff, when the woman (hmm, we'll call her Angie) looked over in my truck and said that Jen needed help. I started to go over there, and Jen stopped me, saying she didn't really need the help, so I shrugged and went back to scanning my stuff. A few minutes later, Angie looked in my truck again, and was pointing off to my left, and I thought she was motioning to the people next to me offloading, but turns out she was pointing to Jen, who appeared in my truck a few seconds later. It turns out we both thought Angie was just joking around, and I guess were equally surprised that she wasn't. She joked about her handwriting, and I made a sarcastic reply (didn't even think about it before I said it), and later felt I shouldn't have reacted the way I did...eventually when I got back to the station, she apologized, thinking she might have insulted me, and I just apologized as well...and that was the last we talked for the night. So yeah, we'll try and work something out, and go out, see how things go. I'm looking forward to it though, more than I thought I would be. I dunno why, but i've been thinking a lot about her the past week...again, i'm not really sure why exactly. *shrug*

I could've sworn there was something else I wanted to say...but as usual I can't think of it. Ja ne.

God, this week seemed like it went on so long. Work wasn't overly tiresome, but for some reason, each day this week when I got home I was exhausted. Thursday and Friday were surprisingly light, I was done with my route by 4:30PM, which pretty much NEVER happens. Yesterday I ended up staying about two hours longer than usual, which wasn't too bad. Today was another long day, because the other guy that works the PM on Saturdays had worked all this week, and according to some FedEx rule, you can't work six days in a row. So I got off work around 6PM. The bright side about this whole week is my paycheck should be pretty nice! :D

Jen comes back to work on Monday...and I don't really know why, but i've found myself for the most part unable to not think about her for the majority of the day. Its mostly just "is she really interested?" and "should I just give it a shot?" I was totally against the idea, but as time has gone on, i've entertained the idea of going for it. I don't even know if anything will actually come of it, after all. Besides, at the very least, i'll have someone else I can hang out with from time to time. There's the part of me that's telling me its a bad idea, but there's that other part that's obviously fighting it. If she does end up asking me, I think i'll just give it a try. It can't hurt, right?