Yeah, yeah...another cop-out blog post. But I don't really care right now. This song fits with how I feel at this point in time.

Roadside, by Rise Against off of the album The Sufferer And The Witness

Tell me what I'm supposed to do,
With all these left over feelings of you;
'Cause I don't know

And tell me how I'm supposed to feel,
When all these nightmares become real;
'Cause I don't know

And I don't think you see the places inside me that I find,
And I don't know how we separate the lies here from the truth;
And I don't know how we woke up one day and somehow thought we knew
exactly what we're supposed to do.

So leave me at the roadside,
And hang me up and out to dry;
So leave me at the roadside,
And hang me up and out to dry.

And I don't think you see the places inside me that I find;
And I don't know how we woke up one day and somehow thought we knew
exactly what we're supposed to do.

So leave me at the roadside,
And hang me up and out to dry;
So leave me at the roadside,
And hang me up and out to dry.

'Cause I don't think you see the places inside me that I find,
And I don't know how we woke up one day and somehow thought we knew
exactly what we're supposed to do,
exactly what to do.

Two posts from me in one day? You lucky bastards! <_<

Anyway...I was browsing a few of the message boards I went to when I came across a Red Hot Chili Peppers board I signed up on way back when their latest album came out and hadn't really gone back much since. I was browsing through it, reading a few topics, finding a few RHCP related things to download, and found out that they had released a video for their second single, "Tell Me Baby." So of course as soon as I heard this, I rushed off to find it, and could only find a relatively bad copy (i.e it looked like it was taken straight from an old VCR). Now with the post backstory out of the way, here's the meat. I'll FINALLY be seeing them live on August 22nd, and one of the rules i've given myself is that I don't listen to any of the music from the band i'm going to see when I buy the tickets. I had forgotten about that rule for the most part, and listened to their new album last week sometime...but I think this past week is when I remembered it, and since then i've been depriving myself of their music and such, but I broke that rule tonight watching their video. Now, i'm not upset at myself for breaking the rule or anything, but since I watched the video, it reminded me of how much I absolutely love the album, and now I find myself desperately wanting to listen to their music again...but i've already broken the rule once, and I don't wanna do it again. It's just so damned hard! I want to listen to RHCP so badly...stupid rule!

For those that care, the situation that resulted in me posting the lyrics has been settled, so...yeah. Rejoice, or something. :)

On a related note, the person it was about and I have become good friends, and i've considered going out to meet her...dunno when I actually will or if I really will for sure...but i'm thinking about it. Yeah...

And on an unrelated note, when I was in AZ, everyone out there called me MT (the nick they know me by), and I can't really say why, but I liked being called MT. I'd ask people out here to call me that too, but it'd just be kinda weird...mainly because they've known me as Dan most of their lives. Maybe i'll get a cool friend or two who'll actually indulge me in it, but I doubt it. A man can dream though, right? <_<

And finally: http://mog.com/argantes

I keep telling myself I won't do this again, but here I am, doing it again. Deal with it, I guess. The following song relates to my life at the moment.

I'm not doing great
I feel like I'm dead
Not thinking straight
Inside my body, troubled, full of hate
I had to let it out before it's too late

Deep Inside
It can hide!
Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside

Why won't it fade
Outside I had to lie; "I'm ok",
I hope someday, I'll stop getting pain
I guess this is a lie, I have made

Deep Inside,
It can hide!
Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside

What am I doing?
I can't believe this
I have been hiding
Wanting to be less
Giving to people,
They take from me
Always they bringing drama to me

Look
Look at me now
NOWWWWWWWW!

Feeling so lost and betrayed
why does this happen to me everytime
Stuck in this place, where I can't escape
Screaming and clawing from deep inside

I can't stand all of this fucking Pain!
Please god just go away!
Please god just make them pay...