Sunday, April 20, 2008

Let me start off by saying that i'm not completely blameless in this regard, and I don't really think anyone can truly say they are, but i'm sick of all the superficial people out here in Orange County. I'm 26 years old, and have only had two real girlfriends in my life. Most of that is due to the fact that i'm shy. Less so than I used to be, but still admittedly quite shy, but that's a whole other post that doesn't need to be dealt with here. On the flip side of that, online i'm a bit more confident in myself, and am willing to put myself out there...and I have on many occasions. I've posted person ads on a lot of places: Yahoo, eHarmony, craigslist, hotornot, and just to name a few, and (surprise surprise) none of them have really panned out. The only one to come out of those sites was Nicole, and i've gone into enough detail about that one, so there's no need to go into it here.

Recently I bothered to respond to a few ads up on craigslist, and on the first response to their ad failed to send a picture along with my message...not for any particular reason or anything, just sorta slipped my mind. I got a few responses to those, who asked for pictures, which I supplied, and then lead to the people I gave them to not responding again since. Now, I know i'm not ugly or anything (so please none of that stuff), but I know i'm not the greatest looking person in existence, and i'm okay with that. You'd think more people would be more willing to get to know the person you are before writing you off instead of just seeing an image and automatically shutting someone down, but apparently that quality is lacking out here. I can't say for sure if its not the same elsewhere, but I think it's more of a focus out in southern California, what with LA being the city of the beautiful people and whatnot.

The recent developments have once again got me thinking about moving the heck out of here. After the last plans fell through, I kinda stopped thinking about it for a while. I'm still of the mindset that it'd be a good thing for me, and I really feel that a change of location could be helpful, not just in my personal life, but in my professional as well. I don't know if i'd ever move out to Arizona to live out the rest of my days, but I do think it'd be a nice switch from what i'm used to out here.

In other news, i've been sick all damned week, and it's really getting to me. I've felt for the most part ok this whole time, but i've had the usual cold stuff...runny nose, sneezing, congestion, all that good stuff. During the start of the week I felt alright, Wednesday not so much. Thursday up until last night I was fine, and then the nose started running like a faucet again. It did that as well on Tuesday, but it seems like its gotten worse this time. I know its only a matter of time before it passes, but that doesn't mean it doesn't get to me.

Vacation bidding started this week, and i've already got the week of my cousin Audrey's wedding off, so i'm looking forward to being up there for that. I got my usual week in summer, and my week in winter (I got a third week this year, yay!), and next week they start on the personal days. I put in for my birthday, same as I do every year, and I don't think i'll be getting it this year either...doesn't hurt to try though.

Speaking of work, this month is the beginning of my 6th year as a courier for FedEx. It also marks one of my fellow couriers 25th year, which is just amazing to me. I asked him if he had gotten tired of the place yet, and he said no, but he also asked me if I thought i'd make it 25 years. I told him that I hope not, but also I never saw myself being here 5 years, but here I am. It's amazing how quickly time passes these days. It doesn't seem like 5 years at all.

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