Blasted feelings...

I found my ex, Johnna on MySpace the other day, and today when I went to my home page, looking to see if there were any new comments or anything, I saw her picture on my "Top 8" friends list thing. And my eyes started to well up just a little. I'm fighting it right now cause Ben's right next to me, and I don't want him asking about it.

Dana asked me a few times if I still loved Johnna, and I told her no....and at the time I truly believed that I don't, but the more I see her picture, the more I realize that I am. Its hard being in love with someone who you know doesn't feel the same way. I know there's little to no hope of her and I getting back together, and that doesn't really alleviate things any. She was the first girl I truly felt that I loved, and I don't think i'll ever be over that, as much as i'd like to think I will be. She mentioned to me on AIM the other day that she's gotten to know someone down in Australia, and that she's gonna be heading out there on vacation. Whether or not it was specifically to see this person, or if she's just going because she's always wanted to, I have no idea...I didn't bother to ask. So yeah, that's what's going through my head at the moment...for some reason I just got the urge to write about it. Ja ne.

Currently listening to: Safe Passage by Manmade God

Haven't posted in this thing forever. No reason, really...just haven't. There's really not a lot to report on, either. Dana's got her own place in Santa Ana now, which is about 20 minutes away. I see her like every other day. Tomorrow will be our 6 month anniversary. Go us! I'm gonna take her out to dinner tomorrow, maybe a movie...but since it falls on a Friday, I can't be out too late. :(

Bought this game called Guitar Hero for the PS2 last week and have had a blast. It comes with a guitar controller, and has you playing with actual rock songs (well, covers of actual rock songs) by groups like Black Sabbath, Queen, Megadeth, The Ramones, Deep Purple, Black Label Society, Jimi Hendrix, and Cream, just to name a few. I beat it on Medium the other day, and am trying to work my way through Hard, but its not easy. I brought it over to Ben's last Monday, and me and his cousin were playing it for about 6 hours. Good times.

Still working at FedEx, still looking to get out. Not looking very hard, but I am looking...I swear. <_<

Anyway, I wanted to update more earlier, but now I don't so much. Ja ne.