So yeah, i've been openly bisexual for a week now and it feels good...i'm glad I finally got around to admitting it to not only myself, but to others.
Friday, January 19, 2007
So yeah, i've been openly bisexual for a week now and it feels good...i'm glad I finally got around to admitting it to not only myself, but to others.
Friday, January 12, 2007
I'm bisexual.
Now, maybe I should clarify things a bit. I am sexually attracted to women, but not men so much. I mean, I find men attractive, i'm not that paranoid about my sexuality, but there aren't any men that i'd want to fuck, if that makes any sense. For years i've been fascinated with shemales, and have dreamt of being with one for a long time. I guess you could say i'm more interested in the male sexual organ than I am the males they're attached to. :p
About a week before my trip to Washington, I made a post on craigslist trying to see if I could get together with someone of the transgendered variety, and unfortunately nothing happened, but I was obviously hoping it might. It's something i'm going to continue to pursue as well, we'll see how it goes I guess, right?
So yeah...that's about it.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Well, I’m writing this from somewhere over
I was thinking about it a little bit today, and I was considering letting the artist draw up his own version, size and all, so I could see just what I was getting into. I’m even considering having him do the crow in a slightly more realistic style. I pretty much ahd my mind set on Chelle’s drawing, but with him saying it needed to be bigger, I don’t think I really want it much bigger than it already is. At least not if its going onto my bicep, which is where I wanted it. I’m thinking about maybe having it put on my upper back, near my left shoulder, so that way the size wouldn’t matter as much. Sure, I wouldn’t be able to see it as easily, but as long as it’s there, it’s all good. As for the RHCP logo, I’m still thinking that one over. I might get it done while I’m in Vegas (if I go). Hopefully if we do go, Ben’ll go with me.
He mentioned the other day that when he said a while ago when we were at the beach (quite a few entries ago now, I’m sure), that he didn’t mean he absolutely wouldn’t go with me, he just wouldn’t be encouraging me to get it. Maybe I misunderstood him, or may be he changed his mind, I dunno. Either way I’m hoping he’ll go.
I’m hoping we do go to Vegas this year, because I have a friend whom I’ve known for a while that moved out there relatively recently that I’d like to go visit. I’m thinking of going out there for a day regardless if we go for Ewa’s birthday or not. I haven’t really decided when I’m gonna leave AZ for Vegas either. If Ben takes Ewa this year, I’ll leave sometime Friday. If not, then I have no clue.
On an unrelated note, Dana’s getting married to a guy she’s known less than a month. She was down in CO for her sister’s wedding (her younger sister, btw), and met someone down there who was going to WA (where she lives now)…for what reason escapes me though. Anyway, they got together in WA and now they’re madly in love, apparently. He was telling her he loved her the second time they got together, which is absolutely fucking insane if you ask me. I don’t know anyone who could decide that they were in love with someone else after two times together. It just doesn’t make any sense to me. I’ve got a strong hunch he’s just playing her like a fiddle. He’s going to be shipped off to the Army in two months, whether he’s just going to Basic or actually shipping out, I dunno. I just think she’s making a humongous fucking mistake. She’s letting herself fall in love too easily, and she’s only going to end up hurt. I don’t care how lovey-dovey they are at the moment, either. Almost all relationships are fantastic to begin with. After a few weeks is when it all starts to go to shit if it’s going to. And even if it doesn’t turn sour, that’s when you start to actually get to know the person you’re going out with.
Anyway, she’s talking about getting married to him before he takes off, and she’s even thinking about doing it this weekend, which if she does….I don’t know. As much as I care for her as a friend, I don’t think I’m gonna go. I really don’t feel that I can honestly support their relationship. Now I know it might sound like some sort of jealous ex-boyfriend rambling, but I swear to you it isn’t. I’m worried she’s just going to get her heart broken again. It’s happened before, and it’s most likely going to happen again. I hope I’m wrong, but I really don’t believe I am this time.
I called Ahn about two weeks ago to do something, but she was going off to AZ to be with her family for Christmas and New Years. She said she’d call me when she got back, and sure enough, she called me on…Wednesday night I believe? So, I’d say that’s a positive sign, wouldn’t you? I’m hoping that if we do end up going to Vegas this next weekend, that she’ll go as well so we can hang out again. When we went out a while ago, I think it went pretty well, and I do enjoy talking with her and hanging out, so I guess we’ll see how the relationship goes.